Today I am 50!
At my 40th birthday I wrote that I was Fat, Fabulous and 40! I wasn't sure how I felt about myself - it was a decade that I thought I was prepared for, but found myself floundering through my forties. It was a time of change, a time of learning who I was - some things were daunting and almost soul-destroying, but I discovered that I could survive. And then ... just when I had a handle on being Me and being happy with myself the big "C" arrived on the scene. I got Cancer or should I say Cancer got Me.
Today I am 1/2 century old - almost an antique, but definitely a collector's model. Where my life is headed I just don't know, but I do know that I am going to begin my next 1/2 century looking forward and living each day to the full.
Here is how my birthday has panned out so far.....
Yesterday and this morning I had some Me time to work on my writing. I printed out all my beautiful poems, and short stories. I realised in the past 5 years or so I have written over 150 pieces of work, as well as two novels and the beginnings of a book on parenting. I am a prolific writer.
|My poems and short stories.|
|Sarah and I having a special laugh|
|Elizabeth giving me a cuddle|
|My beautiful daughters|
My kids - Patrick (my other son), Elizabeth, Matthew and Sarah.
The front garden covered in ribbons - I guess someone special lives here.
My Daddy and I sharing a giggle and laugh together - note the red wig (in case I didn't have any hair)
Yup! I am 50!
The house all decorated.
Swallowing the cake - or blowing out the candle
Love the hat, the wig and the smile
Sarah and Me
Elizabeth and Me
Matthew and Me
And my cheeky Patrick and Me
Look at all my gifts
And of course ... my amazing show cabinet from Ivan
Totally spoilt - I still had the joy of lunch with Mum, Dad, Elizabeth and Patrick. Sarah and Matthew hate eating out and so today - although it was my special day - I chose to do something different. I didn't insist they come out with me, in fact I insisted they didn't. I am of course a little sad, that it wasn't there thing, but I focussed on what I wanted and went with the flow.
So the next step in my lovely day was lunch.
My Daddy and Me.
Patrick and Elizabeth sharing a lovely lunch at the RSL Club
Elizabeth and Granny
A couple of family photos
My 50th year is one that will hold challenges I know. But ... I also know that I am a very blessed and lucky woman. I have parents who love me and are still with me. I have 3 beautiful biological children and 1 special adopted son; all of whom I am so proud. And most of all I have a man who I have shared 25 years with, 25 amazing years ... and I love him more now than I did 25 years ago.
I know my health is under threat ... but on this day - I am alive ... I am happy and I am 50!