I am scared today, as I face the challenges ahead
I knew something was wrong, I could feel it in my head
I wanted to ignore it, but it kept knocking at my door
I really am so scared, I feel so unsure.
They told me to take the pills, to sit and endure the drip
They trapped in the chair, in chemotherapy’s grip
Then they said it was all over, I was clear to move right on
To live my life and enjoy my health, but they were all so wrong
It’s time to start the battle and begin again
I can endure the surgery, I can endure the pain
It is the draining journey, of the toxic lethal dose
It is the weeks and months ahead that I fear the most.
So as I sit here waiting for my body to tell my why
I hold my head in my hands and find that I sigh
I don’t know why I’m chosen to bear this burden now
But, I guess that I’ll recover and that is my vow.
To fight the fight of Cancer . . . and not give in
I’ll hold my head up high and I’ll bring back my grin
I don’t believe in Can’tser – I believe in Can and Do
So watch out tumours here I come – it’s time to have your due!
Beverly Adair – October 2013