First of all thank you for all the wonderful supportive comments about my previous post. It is a strange situation to be in when one thinks that I am bemoaning my fate and yet I have everything I could wish for and more options than I could dream of. How then have I fallen into the trap of being sad and cynical.
For the moment, I am doing as Davine suggested and just letting it hang out in the Universe.
I am dreading Ivan begin away for the next 4 weeks. He has travelled (for business) almost all of our married life and everyone used to ask me how I coped. It was never easy, but now it seems really hard. I miss him and I get really lonely. The children take up more of my time than they did when they were babies, but they don't really need me.
Oooh I am soooo frustrated!!!!!!!
So will end the post with no plans and no ideas; just hanging around and waiting.
Thanks again for the support and love.