Every year I look forward to Christmas with glee and joy and focus on all the wonderful, beautiful, exciting things that uplift our home at this time of the year. I take note of those around me less fortunate, less blessed and share a prayer and thought for them. I must admit it has been at times a fleeting prayer, as I indulge in the blessings of my own family and my life.
This year I am looking at Christmas from a slightly different place. My diagnosis of cancer and treatment has robbed me of energy and the bubbles that normally fill my days. I have been focussing on a 3 week regimen almost since August and even today just a week from Christmas I am resting in bed, conserving energy, just to get to the ballet this afternoon.
I am however, learning new lessons, perhaps the most valuable ones I could ever have learnt. I am not indispensible (I would like to think I am); I am not indestructible (I thought I was); I am not a failure (for asking for help) and no-one hates me for not being perfect.
How many times have I judged others for not stepping up to the plate? How many times have I taken on more than I should, just because I didn’t ask for help? And more importantly how many times have I denied those around me the chance to share their love for me, by helping me just a little.
So Facing Christmas 2012 is a challenge.
My health is now a gift, not the thing I take for granted.
Your help is also a gift for which I cannot thank you enough.
Your prayers, thoughts and wishes lighten up my day as much as the electricity that lightens up our homes.
So facing Christmas 2012 – I wish you all health most of all, love and support of family and friends and my love. Thank you for being my friends.